I woke up this morning...feeling the love. don't you ever just wake up that way? just...feeling love for certain things in your life. and appreciation. it's like Thanksgiving come early. which is good, because apparently my Thanksgiving might be hopelessly awkward, but that's another story for another time.
I love my flist. *squishes you all* but there are a few I felt the need to call out by name. just...because. you're on my mind in particular. no cut because I'm going to monopolize your flist with warm fuzzies. mwahaha.madame_meretrix
were it not for you, I would have left fandom six months ago. seriously. I would have packed up my bags and gone home...probably still writing, but not really sharing. you're such a great sounding board for fic that it's kind of addictive. you're my muse. you a-muse me. *snerk* god I'm a dork. sometimes I feel sorry for the people who don't know you, or don't see how very cool you are. I love that you can be brainy and insightful and astute (and esoteric...dude, I don't have an esoteric bone in my body, but *you* wear it well) without feeling arrogant or like that makes you better. you just take joy in being geeky, and that's enough. I think that's the best kind of smart. I love that you're down-to-earth. I love that you're a great writer, and somehow don't really know it. if I could clone you, fandom would be that much more fun. now that I've embarrassed the hell out of you....nyghtpet
. sorry you guys come as a package deal for this. obviously I share different things with each of you, but for this, you're a twofer. because dudes, seriously, how would I have made it through the last year without you? for all your company and understanding and unconditional support, I can't thank you guys enough. on days when a day of *just sitting on the couch* seemed daunting and impossible, you got me through it and even managed to make me laugh, or find something to be excited about. there...aren't words big enough. seriously. you replaced some of my despair with joy, at a time when I was afraid to turn to anyone.vamptastica
. I don't even know if you check your flist anymore, but you're here because I'm thinking about you. you've always been so generous in sharing your talent with me, but that's not the reason I love you. I love your quirk. I love your light. you've always been good to me. I'm sorry things are so hard right now in RL, and I wish there was something I could do to make it even a little better. you're loved.eyezrthewindows
. yeah, I got nothin heavy to say, so quit looking at me like that. you just...tickle me. you amuse the hell out of me. I love bantering with you and squeeing and joking around, and our interactions make my fandom experience better. and I make a little squeaky noise every time I see a posted fic by you on my list, because I know it's going to make me laugh or glow or pant. possibly all 3. your fics are just so...Keppy. there's a definite stamp of Kepness. I love it.toobusy2write
, you have always knocked my fucking socks off. the first time I read Bent Justice is burned permanently into my brain, and one of these days, you're going to get sick of me saying how much I love that fic and pry me off your leg, which I would hump on its merit alone, but that's ok. I'll say it anyway. I just enjoy the hell out of you. your fb early in my fandom career was valued, and encouraged me to keep writing. and you're made of class. I'll share a secret with you (publicly, haha) and that's that of all the writers I really looked up to when I was lurking, it turns out you're the only classy one. and I love you for it. well, I take that back, not just you...you and inca. which brings me toincasink
. there's an Inca-shaped hole in my fandom life. I think that's the best thing I could say to express my affection for you. I wish you the best in life, darlin.
and the rest of you bastards...I don't love you at all. haha JUST KIDDING! I love you all. but I think if I spew any more warmth and honesty into my journal today, I might spew for real. *snerk* these are just the ones that I *had* to get out today.
it feels good to strip the soul bare like that sometimes. so maybe I'll do it again sometime with other people I value highly *big smooches*