spoilery love

[thatotherperv]

oh my god, if I didn't love Brian Kinney's complete and utter loveable dysfunction before, this sealed it. with the looking after Justin's best interests and paying for school, and being so goddamn *pathetic* in a way you don't really expect him to be. paying for whores that look like Justin. watching old movies in the dark. making a nuisance of himself so he doesn't have to be alone....

*cries, curls up in the fetal position, and wallows happily in the angst* I have such a kink for fictional boys who are defensively vulnerable.

(though simultaneously, I'm not amused that he's fucking up Michael's relationship again. but I get why he's acting that way.)

and while we're on that subject, WHY DO NONE OF HIS FRIENDS SEE HE IS SELF-DESTRUCTING?? *shakes them* this is not a drill, people. *shakes them again* is the fact that he's acting selflessly not enough of a warning sign for you people?

ok, I've only seen through the ep where Brian pays for school, so try not to spoil me further. though I do know their storyline continues from here, so I know it's not The End for them. but that's all I know.






ok, The Hetero Lifemate and I (well, she's hetero, anyway) are watching Oz. I think I've mentioned this before. we love it. we sit in the living room on a nightly basis and go WHAT? WHAAAAT????? WHO WAS READY FOR *THAT* TO HAPPEN? NOT US!

we like being tortured. that is a show built for true masochists.

but the problem is, we love Beecher. and we're on s2, early s2 anyway, and there's that Law and Order SVU guy playing...uh...what's the character's name. I can't remember. but Beecher's new roommate who's seducing him for White Trash Loser. and our problem is, we've been speculating on whether or not SVU guy is gonna fall for Beecher anyway. (the Hetero Lifemate is a slasher, she just doesn't know it. lmao. it's funny cuz it's true).

and I can't handle it, man. I *need* to know if I should get my hopes up, or if I should assume SVU guy is going to go ahead and screw over my little woobie. I wish wish wish his friendship and sexual advances were genuine, because I want Beecher to have *someone*, man, but this ain't no romantic comedy, and I could just...cry.

why am I watching 2 angst-heavy shows at once? *headdesk*

so tell me true...am I smoking crack to hope for something real between them, or can I seed some hope in my little slashy heart?