thatotherperv

Um, I reworked this fic. I think this was the first Jeff/Jensen I publicly posted, and I always intended to write more but it rankled in a bunch of places, so I had to smooth it out, and then the ending needed some changes before I could add more. And then my computer tanked and it all got lost. And then I recovered it. \o/ it’s been a long road to posting, in other words.

ETA: let's pretend I'm not a retard that took like 5 tries to post this correctly, ok? sorry for the yoyoish effect on your flist



Title: hide beside me
Author: Mel (thatotherperv)
Pairing: Jeff/Jensen, NC-17
Word Count: 3000 words
Summary/Notes/Warnings: Jeff and Jensen meet early, when Jensen's 19 or 20 and Jeff's 31. but they're still actors, or trying to be.
Also, I invented a brother for Jeff, though I'm not sure why.

the originally posted version was beta'd by madame_meretrix, who rocks my socks off. I didn't bug her for the revision because I'm already working her ass off elsewhere, so any changes that suck have nothing to do with her.
title still lovingly ripped off from the Goo Goo Dolls.


( Jensen watched with clear eyes, not even cracking a smile. There was a little crease of intensity between his brows that hinted at personal insult. )

in my mind, this dovetails into the same 'verse as hide beside me, which I wrote in April last year. but for all intensive purposes, anyone living outside my head probably can't tell. since I posted that fic, I'd gone back and re-written it (like an amped-up polishing...not much content changed, but it read a lot smoother), and then got 3/4 of the way through a prequel, and 1/4 of the way through a sequel. then my Dell died. I'd never backed up that file. *facepalm* one of these days I'll scrape together the cash to get it up and running again, but for now, this can be read as a standalone.

mostly, it's my effort to get back on the horse. I keep writing snippets of things and then convincing myself they're too crappy for daylight. I'm hoping that if I force myself to write something and hit 'post' right after, I can slog my way out of like...8 months of writer's block and anxiety about subjecting anyone but meretrix to my bullshit.


Title: Push You Out
Author: Mel (thatotherperv)
Pairing: Jeff/Jensen, implied Chris/Jensen
Length: 850 words
it's angst, mostly. hahahaha. AU, see the note above.


( Jeff knows he's always been stand-in for one Christian Kane. Never minded all that much. Six years, and he knows Jen loves him. )