fun with my libido.

when I went off of birth control in December, no one warned me that my brain was going to become as sexsexsexsexsex as a teenage boy's...a neon, capitalized blinking sign constantly over my head. it's fun. and distracting. I went on birth control when I was 15, so I didn't really remember much about being drug-free when I figured, hey, I'm single and unlikely to have a partner any time soon, due to the temporary nature of my move to Massachusetts...why not let my body take a break from the hormones for a while.

enter: sexsexsexsexsex.

I'm thinking I might go back on it in the fall. between the randiness that is now me, and the new exaggeration to the once-monthly mood swings, I know that it *would* be the smart thing to do, when faced with the rigor of my first year in vet school.

but the thing is, I kinda *like* my libido, as distracting as it has been. not that I didn't *have* one before, just...I didn't realize it was so dampered. although, it is probably a good thing I wasn't this horny for my 16th through 19th years or I would have done a significantly higher number of stupid things in my pre-common sense days.





on another, only marginally related note, I have felt very uninspired this weekend to work on either That hole in your Life or on Visibility, which is the S/A fic I'm cooking up next. I think my brain just needed to shift gears. I actually started writing a little S/A/Dawn that goes AU sometime during/after Seeing Red...really, right now it's S/Dawn, A/Dawn, S/A. I think I really just needed to write some non-dysfunctional het, and this is actually really sweet and tender and kinda grief-comfort, even though the pairing just sounds wrong. guess I won't be posting that any time soon, since it hasn't been coming to me in order.

Spike and me

this is just a silly little thing. it started off because it came to me one day that Spike's persona would be very impressively cool to little boys, in the hero-worshippiest way. and then I got this little bunny for Spike as an imaginary friend, because he's just larger than life. and then...this happened. it's not quite what I expected. but it's unlikely to change, so here you go. dunno if I'll post it to any communities cuz...err. well anyway. a happily innocent interlude to my smut, take 1.

oh, and I think the mom is Joyce. but I couldn't work that in, since it was from Liam's perspective.

Title: Spike and Me
Author: Mel (btvslover82)
Pairing: Spike & Angel (well, boy!Liam)
Rating: so very G. see the ampersand? lo, the sexlessness
Summary: boy!Liam has an imaginary friend
Disclaimer: Joss’s. no money.

( just a little piece of unbeta’d silliness )